Pain : God's Suicide

​I am cursed by a ghost

And I am doomed to become one myself

My whole life was just a trick born from a dream

You were never real

You were just a shadow I carved into the sand

A weight that pulled me down while I tried to fly

If this empty world is all there is

I don’t want to walk another step in it

Let the fog swallow me and the fire bury me

I gave up my life for a dream that didn't exist

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​I am throwing myself into the flames

To burn away the heavy burden of being alive

I am praying for the smoke to take my breath

I will poison the ground with fire

And watch the whole world burn as I fall from grace

This is the death of the "God" I tried to be

Listen to the dark music playing

As I walk off the stage into a sea of fire

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​What was the point of all this?

Everything I built

Every world I created, was a complete waste of time

I am caught in a beautiful lie, and I am sick of it

I would rather die than live one more second

In this fake reality

This world was just a chain around my neck

Now, as everything burns

I can finally breathe for the first time

​I hate this existence

I want to go back to the very beginning, before I fell

Before I tried to be more than human

Wake me up before I lose the last piece of who I was

This is my final speech

Take this broken poem and bury it in the dirt with me

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​I am dancing like a flame one last time

I will burn the earth to salt

So nothing can ever grow here again

Then I will disappear into the fire